Imagine waking up to what should be a normal day in my life and finding that a loved one is gone. About three years ago, I thought a day in my life would just be a normal day and a fun night, but I never imagined losing a very important person in my life. That day, I was supposed to be home taking care of my grandmother; however, I chose to go out with my friends. We were partying, drinking and having fun. Unfortunately, I ignored my father's kind words: “Son, please stay home and take care of your grandmother because she is sick. My parents had the trust to complete a simple task, but I abused that trust. Since the day she left, I couldn't forgive myself for not taking care of her when I had the chance. I felt overwhelmed with guilt about the decision I had made and I promised myself that I would never allow this to happen to anyone else in my life again. Even though she is no longer physically with me, and I know that her spirit will live on forever and the images of her love will never fade from my memory. That day, while I was out with my friends, I didn't see the importance of how much my grandmother meant to me until she passed away in the hospital. My friends and my grandmother were important to me, but I chose to be with my friends that evening. However, I was not able to be at the hospital to share with her the last moment she left this world. Sometimes I wish I could whisper in her ear and let her know what a loving, caring, and supportive grandmother she was. And other times I wish I could kiss her on the cheek and look into her eyes and say “I love you.” With my grandmother's death, I was filled with grief and pain as if someone had ripped my heart out and stabbed me. me in the back with a guy from the pit. ......middle of paper......, give, laugh, be happy, have patience, and most important of all, live every moment as if it were your last. If she hadn't taught me these important life lessons, I wouldn't be the person I am today. She pushed me to succeed in school. Without her, I would probably be wandering the streets and would never have the opportunity to write this essay to appreciate her love. My grandmother's spirit inspires me to succeed in school to make her happy. She will always be in my heart and I know she watches over me and protects me. Because she is a loving and forgiving person, I feel like she has forgiven me and I have forgiven myself for not being able to be by her side to say a final goodbye. And I too know that she smiles at me proudly from above with love like a bright sun after a rainy day..