Initially, from a very young age, women were considered by me as objects of sexual satisfaction and this was good because I was a young man and to prove that I was indeed secure in my sexuality, it made sense to engage in sexual acts and treat women the same. Luckily for me, as I grew up, my thoughts on the treatment of women changed drastically because I have a younger sister and the idea of ​​her meeting someone like me at a younger age was terrifying. I think as I grew up and became friends with women and heard about their daily struggles that they face, it made me more understanding and compassionate and it sometimes became a conflict when I felt like I was supposed to project this tough, manly exterior, but I was open, expressive, and even sometimes sensitive when exchanging dialogue with my closest female friends. I think it was a gender confrontation because things that I considered feminine or didn't discuss in the typical locker room or weight room that I was now becoming comfortable with and things who I considered "guys having fun" have become immature and demeaning. . It was a difficult time in my life but now I realize that it was not identified.