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Essay / Animal's Animal Conflict - 1994
One of these inner conflicts is Animal's attraction to women, as he cannot vehemently deny his human feelings towards human women. Considered an inferior being by many people, he sees "the warnings in the faces of the old women who caught me looking at [Nisha]. The mating of an animal with a human female is unnatural, but I have no choice but to be unnatural” (78). His desire to be with a human woman betrays his humanity, no matter how much he doesn't want it. The animal is stuck between Nisha's love and lust, but if he remains an animal, he will never be able to act on his thoughts. This inner conflict within him brings out his humanity because of how the thought of him and Nisha being together gives him hope, a human emotion. His philosophy about his own humanity is also affected by his perceptions about other events and ideas. When talking with Ma Franci, she mentions that "being trapped in a human body...it's hell, if you're an angel" and Animal sympathizes "with these angels." Being trapped in an animal body is hell, if you dream of being human” (210). At this point in the novel, Animal accepts that his soul is human. He may be in the body of an “animal,” but he recognizes that he longs for a human body. This desire makes him intrinsically human, because dreaming is a human trait. The animal truly discovers that it is not human as it hallucinates and discovers that it cannot perform basic animal functions or instincts. He's starving, but won't kill a lizard to eat it, so the lizard tells him, "A broken rib can be mended...but you can never change your nature." You are human, if you were an animal you would have eaten me” (346). The situation between Animal and the lizard takes place in Animal's subconscious, due to hallucinations, but the fact